Maybe I AM going through a quarter life crisis. Although technically, I'm not a quarter life yet.
I know I haven't been writing much. I used to write a lot. Lost a lot of motivation, passion, likes, and dislikes.
Right now, I feel hopeless, that my life has no meaning, that I don't know what I'm doing, or why I'm doing them.
I'm just living day by day.
And you know how some people tell you to live day by day? It's actually painful.
Because you trudge through life without any joy.
It's not that I'm not thankful for what I have. It's not that I don't have things that make me happy. I have amazing friends, wonderful colleagues, a loving boyfriend and a loving family, and so much more.
And it's not that I don't have hope. I have hope and faith in God's Kingdom to come.
But you know, it doesn't mean I feel happy every day. People say to find your hope in Jesus. But why don't people explain HOW?
It's always easier said than done. And even then, how is it to be done?
To have faith, requires faith in itself.
And I don't think I can do that, just yet.
What's to my life? I don't know. Now I'm just trying to be a good person as much as I can. And live, for the sake of living.