If Only Life Can Be Like Fallout
I've been playing Fallout:New Vegas for quite some time now, and as I go around the Mojave hunting down bad guys and saving the day, I can't help but to wish life could be like Fallout sometimes. Now don't get me wrong, it's not the nuclear war that I'm hoping for, but rather the ability to right your mistakes and work towards the best ending that you want, through the time traveling superpower that you wield through saving and loading.
You see, in the Fallout universe, no matter how difficult your enemies are, or how bad you are at the game, you could always right a sucky situation by saving diligently and loading your previous saves when things get too difficult. Or when you make a stupid mistake. Accidentally walked into a mine and blew your legs off? Chose the wrong faction to side on and got everyone killed? Picked up the wrong guns or entered a wrong area? Entered a fight without adequate preparation? Just choose from a save file that you saved earlier and voila, you can redo everything again while avoiding the your earlier mistakes, like forgetting to stock up on ammo.
Unfortunately, the real life is nothing near like Fallout. If there is one most painful lesson that life teaches me, it's our inability to go back in time and right our mistakes. In real life, there's no save file to load, and the only way we can go is forward. No matter what actions that you make today, it will set you on a path that would forever change your life, a path that you would have to live on with the rest of your life.
Like it or not, no matter what decision you make, you are solely responsible for it, and even if you hate the decision you made a lot, or come to regret it in the future, there is no option to reload a save file and hope to do things differently. Mistakes, regrets and what ifs, there's only one way to deal with them, and it is to accept them and move on, and make the best out of the situation that you caught yourself in. And hopefully entrench the lesson in your mind so you will never repeat it again in the future.
I've made a lot of mistakes in my life, mistakes that I hope I could undo by reloading a save file so I could do things differently, like studying harder during my university days, or taking up an internship, but I suppose this is the way God wants us to grow. To live with all our choices, and to learn through them. If everyone could load their save file, the world would be a real chaotic place with overly happy people, don't you think? Oh well, I guess happy endings could only happen in games like Fallout.