It's funny how when you're feeling down, nothing seems to matter anymore. Homework, studies, commitments and friendships all seem so trivial as the weight of the entire world is bearing down upon you.
Somehow, I can't seem to pinpoint exactly how my life has been changed into such a state since I first came to Singapore. Maybe it's because of the culture shock that I'm experiencing in a different environment. Maybe it's because how my situation has changed over the years. Maybe it's the stress of the added new responsibilities and commitments. Or maybe it's just because I'm innately prone to breakdowns like this.
Looking back, it's certainly not the first time that I've been feeling this way. Back in Malaysia I think I've had this too. In school and in church. I think I've always had trouble fitting in. Because all I could be is myself. And it's not a very likeable self.
But I'll survive like I always do. I just have to pick up the pieces and continue moving on. And don't give a fuck about other things anymore.